Friday, February 20, 2009

uuuhhhmmm yeah.

so why is it that when i'm drinking wine (second glass, swear, promise, maybe not, but still love me, k? promise? pinky promise? k. k.) i write the best emails?

er, i am SO not feelin this crazy snow coming. just sayin. i gots to work tomorrow, and this snow? yikes. they make it sound so bad.

but i don't believe them.

denial? maybe.

dellusional? perhaps.

what else starts with a D? dairy. and you know what? the dairy department? is so the shiz at jewel. and not too much at dominicks.

even tho dominicks is so bliggin it's ridic.

i'm thinking i shouldn't post this, bc i sound a tad bit looney, but really? what fun is sane?

that make any sense?

basically, this is what happens when you leave me home alone. i blog. like a lunatic. and i read. like a maven. sp? anyone? bueller?

also? i'm turning off the news. very. scary. news. "if you hear gunfire, run the other way. that's what i told my kids."

uhm, ya think?

also?

my heart is breakin so much i can't watch anymore. here i am on my nifty new laptop in my comfy home and here i hear that 17 teenagers have been killed in chicago.

and another man shot his ex girlfriend.

sorry if i'm debby downer. but really? i am scared. of the world. of the people in this world. mostly of me, bc what have i done? what CAN I DO?????

advice, please. any chi town gals out there (and guys, bc i don't hate) that can tell me how i could help... beyond donating online...

and btw? i feel so disconnected from the world, and this IS SO NOT me sayin, yo give me props! for donating! yay me! it's me saying...

what. can. i. do. bc i feel like i should (SHOULD) be doing more and yet... i don't know HOW. and that to me is the saddest part. imagine how many people are out there who don't know HOW but WANT TO.

how can i help?

and seriously, i am a flake, but if you remind me and tell me and comment i swear it will settle in. i try to do so much good but sometimes life gets the better of me.

ever consider that phrase? "gets the better of me". that seems so sad to me.

i want the WORLD to get the better of me.

k? got it? get the better of me. it's the only part worth havin.

4 comments:

Sweetbabs said...

Yaa. Snow! I woke up this morning to lots of snow. I live north of you in Madison WI. SO we have gotten that snow too. I hate winter. No I don't really but I want it to be done. I am soo over winter and snow!!

I posted my purse by the way. Come check it out.

AS for the helping I am no help. I do not know what to do either. Besides going to the local homeless shelter I got nothing. I know this going to sound bade but I really do not have time to help. I have a family now and my family takes up all of my time. That and work and life. I am just trying to make it in this crazy world we live in. Good luck with helping!

Amber said...

Check out www.volunteermatch.org. You type in a location and a keyword like kids, pets, etc. and it gives you a list of volunteer opportunities in your area. I haven't had a chance to spend a lot of time looking at the site yet but I've heard great things about it. Good luck finding a way to help and kudos to you for having the desire!

Maggie May said...

you are very empathetic, and so i totally get what you are saying...i'm the same way..the news soaks into me. i found you through Jason and like your blog! hi :)

Erin @ T5M said...

You can do so much, even the simplest things can make a HUGE impact!

You are in the right place: heartbroken over the state of the world. It's like that old saying goes, "if you're not outraged, you're not paying attention". I personally wasn't paying attention (I haven't watched the news in 15 years). Until now. You probably know, from reading my blog, that my panties are ruffled over extreme poverty. It hurts my heart when I learn about 8 year olds who are the head of their household, taking care of their siblings (who are 2 and 5) and have no money, no food, and no place to live. And that scenario is common all over Africa. ...or 8 year old Lillian who was found weighing 12 pounds because both of her parents died and she was left by herself. Can you imagine an 8 year old child weighing 12 pounds? My 8 year old weighs 75 pounds. You can see pictures of her when they found her, and again, healthy and reunited with her sisters on www.mullychildrensfamily.org (or google Charles Mulli) - I just read his book, it was awesome! - the pics of Lillian are on the right of his home page, in a youtube slide show.

Sorry for the long comment, you know I'm passionate about this stuff! :-)

-Erin